So many fires....so little water!!!!

Whats the cure? What is the cure to all the problems people face today? I know everyone has their own problems but this is my damn page so I get to talk about the things that are an itch I just cant seem to scratch.

It seemed forever that I waslooked to for alot of answers. Even at the age of 17 and on, people like my Father, mother, brother, girfriends, friends and total strangers always would come to me for answers. I had them. I was a great listener. And many times even suprised myself with the results of my advice. But where did all the answers go? It seems that as the days go by I seem to get dumber.

I am not sure if it was the "ol school" upbringing my father had given to me that made me wiser. Or if it was the failed attempts of relationships peple had that I seen crumble that I learned from. Or even the total inner explosion of my brother and the " me-me-me" personality of my mother. But somewhere between 9 and 26 I was the fountain of great information. And then it just was gone. Just like someone clapped their hands and thelights went off.

I guess that with all those answers a confident man stood behind them. I felt untouchable to failure. Immune to pain. But when my business started failing and the loss of my father, my crytonite had been found. I am human. And as I a will oftn do I will refer back to a westling analogy. The Champ had finally checked out. I had lost it all. I a matter of a few months. Gone.
I drove 50,000 dollar trucks. HAd the toys: 4-wheelers, boats, cassic cars, ect. All gone. I was human. Maybe for the first time in my life.

Now, feeling I have lost all the answers, nd having noone to get them from, I am at the base of a huge mountain looking up. And that is okay. I am appreciating things I once missed. Noticing that the best things in life are in fact free. And at the base of that mountain I have my strength. My wife. And it may sound mushy and tupid, but I do feel that we will climb it to together. Because of OUR strength we can do it. I may not have all the answers bu I know that Jenn and I an figue them out together. And maybe.......just maybe just when someone thinks THEY have the answers.........WE will change the questions!!!!!!

Enclosing, I am in fact still the champ in my life and plan to be for the next 50 years God willing. And all I can hope for is that my meory will not fail me. Please let me forget the hate my mother has, the self destruction of my brother, the self pitty of some friends, and let me remember the love and support of my in-laws, the leadership and flawless fathering of my Dad, and the warm embrace, endless love, and infinate wisdom of the greastst woman on the face of this planet and any other discovered, my Wife.

LJ